One of the first things I noticed right away when I first started practicing yoga was that I was able to focus and listen through a whole 60 min lecture (I was a student in Uni at the time). Prior to that, I would listen for the first 15-20 mins and then start daydreaming, doodling and just waiting for the lecture to be over. I remember thinking to myself how amazing it was that I had gained such a great new ability despite the fact that I wasn’t even “good” at yoga.
I had no idea what I was getting into when I started my practice. Really, I just wanted to try something new and had no expectations beyond losing some weight. But, it caught me and shifted the way that I related to everything around me and even the way that I related to myself.
At that time, I was a pretty heavy cigarette smoker. I had tried to quit a few times before, but never really managed to stop for more than a few days at at time. I also had a tendency to eat too fast and way too much and would need a few cigarettes after every meal. I felt heavy and bloated most of the time. While I had some pretty solid friendships, I so desperately wanted companionship. The relationships that I established were lacking stability, they would crumble, leaving me dazed, confused and heartbroken.
All of this shifted, it was gradual and natural, a bi-product of my practice. I was unaware of how my actions were misleading me and holding me back. I naturally shed nasty habits, I naturally grew more aware and confident. My actions began to reflect my refined awareness and self value. I began to feel vibrant, brilliant, powerful and free!
Looking back, my yoga practice gave me the strength to let go of the things that I was so desperately clinging to that were not serving me and gave me the courage and clarity to actively pursue my true desires. I was able to be very deliberate about all the decisions I made and actions I took.
I’m so grateful to have had yoga as the undercurrent of my life as I transitioned from my 20’s to my 30’s, from being single and living in Israel to getting married and moving to the US, from working for corporations to being an independent yoga teacher, and lastly into motherhood. I have a feeling of calm, when I anticipate the transitions ahead of me. My relationship to life has blossomed and I am open, ready and excited for what's to come.